Moving Forward

Sorry for the lack of updates. I've been having major issues with sleep lately. I'll be so tired I can barely keep my eyes open, but when I try to go to sleep, I can't quite get there. I've been up until 4-5 a.m. for the last few nights, and only sleeping an hour or two. Except this morning, I slept until noon, but missed two doses of pain medication and was absolutely miserable. Also, for the last two days, I've been fighting with myself, because no matter what I do, how I sit, how I lay, I can't get my left hip comfortable. It's so miserable. I've been trying to stay busy so I won't think about it much, but it's hard to do anything when you just cannot get comfortable. I guess my nerves are starting to reattach themselves, because I'm also having shooting pains from my hip to my ankle, and a painful tingling feeling that moves up and down my leg. I'm still having some pretty rough issues with pain in my left knee. Isn't it wonderful, I developed arthritis in my left ankle several years ago after breaking it twice, and now my left hip is going to have arthritis after it heals (not to mention the hip replacement in a few years) and I think it's developing in my knee as well. My left side is obviously not my lucky side.

On another note, the Nucynta that my orthopedic surgeon started me on is not working. He said that he doesn't like for his patients to be on narcotics, and since Nucynta is an opiod, it's preferrable. He supposedly prescribed it because it doesn't have the undesirable side effects that Roxicodone and Percocet have (all pain medications make me nauseated and I end up getting sick, so I have been on Phenergen every 4 hours since I got out of the hospital). However, the Nucynta gave me the same issues, and absolutely no pain relief. So I'm back to the normal regimen. Every now and then I'm able to push past the normal times for medicating, but not often. It's usually when I'm having a good day and have lots of distractions, but then I start having major pain and realize that I'm overdue. I wake up in the mornings so stiff and in pain. It takes me a while to get up and get moving once my pain meds kick in.

I'll be staying at my parents' house again this weekend. It's nice to be able to spend time with them. My woodburning is coming along great, and the nightmares have taken a hiatus. Hopefully a permanent one. Maybe things are going to start getting better. At least, I can hope.

"It ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward." Rocky Balboa